Hesitate - means to pause in doubt

Lincoln, Nebr.
June 7, 1954

Dear Marie -

Being I have not heard from you since I wrote I will write a few lines. Because I wish to thank you for the pretty mother's day greeting card and the $2.00 enclosed!

Marie, on the mother's day card you wrote that you would write a letter soon. It will soon be a month ago since the 9th of May which was mother's day you know. I am anxious to hear from you in reply to the questions which I asked you.

Vacation time will soon be here. Do you have any plans where you intend to vacation? Do you suppose that you could come to visit me? One time you wrote that you would see me next summer. Do you remember? Please let me know in answer to the questions I have asked you. How I wish you would come to Lincoln.

When I talked to the man here whom I work for about if I could go out West he answered that my children would have to O.K. it first. Remember how when the depression days were, how I went and talkedfor my children about some assistance? Now, when I ask you for assistance you seem to hesitate. It seems no matter how I plead and please in my letters to you, you can't make up your mind. Now please write so I will receive your letter by June 14th. That is the date of my brother Joseph's birthday. I am going to send him a hand-rolled handkerchief and it is also imported.

You know I have 2 spring coats with my belongings and I need a spring coat. I was wondering if you had light weight jacket which you would give me. The lady I work for said I should get one and I told her that I would write and ask my daughter if she had one I could have. Thank you in advance.

I sent you some papers. Let me know how you liked them as I may sent you some more.

I think I would like a place to work on the order of the work I am doing here. I think I would like a place in Seattle, Washington if you don't wish me to come and visit you. So please write and sai it is O.K. for me to go to Seattle. I hope I may be able to find money for my railroad fare.

And if you should have any dresses you don't care for you could send them to me dear. How I wish that you could sew a few dresses for me and those I have need to have alterations. I have so little time to sew and mend here.

Now Marie you are supposed to be religious. Then why don't you feel like doing some kind deeds for me?

I am enclosing some clippings and let me know how you like them. Excuse me if I repeat.

I have now been here over 8 months. I wash the dishes for 15 to sometimes 20 people each meal.

The day I go to the city I don't wash the dishes in the evening. The other days I wash the dishes 3 times a day and the cooking utensils also.

If I bought the goods for a dress for my-self and sent the measurements could you make it for me? I could tell you more about the dress when you answer these questions Marie.

I am so lonesome. Your father I have not seen since I was at the hospital. I am not supposed to write to him, or telephone either.

You may write to me with lead pencil if it is easier for you. Please excuse my pencil.

Please write may I remind you by June 14th.

When I talked to the social worker about leaving here she answered that it was all right for me to make arangements when I asked her. The social worker told the lady I work for that she felt sorry for me meaning about how you haven't helped me to be releaved from here. At one time when I cried because you don't show concern about my wishes the lady here also said she felt sorry for me.

Ever since I went to the County hospital in Omaha I have written to you about some aid from you. And when I have received your letters I would look to see if there wasn't some ray of hope. But I have been disappointed over and over again.

I still wish to see my guardian in Omaha so please write in your own words your consent. Hesitate - means to pause in doubt.

I have been wearing that blue coat all winter and it is now almost too warm to wear.

Please let me know how you like these clippings, I mean don't forget.

And answer my questions when you write so I can tell the lady I work for.

Best wishes to you and all the members in your family.

Again thank you for the pretty greeting card and the $2.00 enclosed.

As ever,
I remain
Your mother.